If you have friends with whom you can joke around without having any worries, you are a lucky person. But sometimes, friends change so drastically that it is very hard to digest the fact.
If you have been a victim of a best friend who broke your trust, then do read this.
I couldn’t tell you which classes you’ve been taking. I couldn’t tell you who you spend your days with, and I couldn’t tell you what’s important in your life lately. Or, who is important in your life (clearly, not me). I don’t know, and I realized that I haven’t known for a while.
It’s a funny thing, change, because I used to know everything. I used to talk to you every day, and I could tell you all of your little quirks, antics, and daily adventures. Hell, I used to be a part of them. But now, I’m not, and I haven’t been for a while.
You all too gracefully walked out of my life, took your final bow, and exited stage left. I was just a scene in the movie that is your life and the curtain finally went down on me, leaving me in the dark.
You know, I used to miss you, our inside jokes, our nonsensical conversations, and our wild adventures. I used to miss that friendship so much. But, I never felt like you missed me, or even remembered and missed the things that I did. So, eventually I stopped missing you.
I used to be mad too. I was so angry at how you could just walk out of my life and forget about me, and it made me both sad and mad at the same time, making me think I hated you.
So, it took me a while, but I’ve slowly come to the realization that a “friend” isn’t someone that only texts you when they want, or when they need something. It’s not someone that just makes small-talk with you and waves at you from across the bar, and it’s definitely not someone who doesn’t know how you are. Or, who you are because let’s be honest, it doesn’t take long for life to come around and change people.
To me, you’ve become someone that I used to know. Not for lack of caring, but because quietly, without you ever really noticing it, you stopped knowing who I was. You stopped asking how I was and, in that time, I’ve changed. I bet you don’t know about my latest struggles and triumphs. If you do, you haven’t congratulated me or asked me if I’m doing okay.
It took me way too long to realize that you shouldn’t stay friends with people who never ask how you are. In simpler words, you don’t know how I am, and you never asked.
But, in case you were wondering, I’m not sad. I’m not mad, and I don’t hate you. The thing is, I just don’t care anymore.
I’m sorry if that sounds harsh, but I don’t. I let go of you just like you let go of me. But sometimes, I do wonder how you are.
And, I hope that one day someone asks you how I am.
I hope you realize that you don’t know. And, I hope you miss me and I hope it hurts.
Its so true that friends show their love in times of trouble, not in happiness.